Torn

Some times I just hate ministry life. There seems to be a constant battle between my home and my calling. I know that I am called to be a child of God, a husband, a father and a minister. Now I know that people like to order those things, but sometimes the call lines get blurry depending on the leading of God.

Today I just want to give up on everything other than being a child of God. Sounds horrible doesn't it? Just looking at it now that I have typed it is ugly as it is. It seems that, for today anyway, I cannot do any of the previous callings adequately to the pleasing of those involved. Maybe that's my problem in this moment... trying to please everyone... but God.

It doesn't feel real well when getting torn between your heart and mind. My heart wants to go one way and yet my mind another. Neither are good or bad per say, just going in different directions and I feel stuck in the center being torn by things I love.

No real grand biblical truth today. I am just struggling on the failure side of my somewhere. Maybe you can help me today. Have you ever just wanted to give up? To give in? Than maybe you have something for this pastor to help him in his struggle.